Hospital

Dad goes in tomorrow for the lung resection(?) on wednesday , they'll break two ribs and chop away part of his lung with tumour and surrounding tissue around the heart and diaphragm .

Its v serious .

Nearly read the will by accident the other day , told mum to put it away and put my foot in it then cos she didnt know it was there so she read it , even though dad had told her she was to know nothing about it.

This is where the hard part starts , this is where we see him get so sick .

I have to steel my nerves , frayed as they are .

I have my bro and his wife here supporting them too , I wish I could hug my sis , I wish I could tell her to come home , I hope she comes home soon.

Mum's getting forgetful , lighting a cig, staring off into air and then stubbing it out when its burnt itself down. She put the frying pan into the oven , forgot about it and turned the oven on :)

She's trying to cook better food for Dad and she's just a bit all over the place , I can only imagine what its like for her , I'm only a daughter , thats his wife and my god does she love him .

His webcam wasn't working today , Sis rang home from Oz so I'll have to get my guy to fix it later.

Happier note for me , my favourite pc game is releasing more content , some I can get tonight .

This is my escape , my salvation.

I think I need my tablets again , stress is really getting to me , sounds selfish and it is but it's getting to us all in our own ways.

I love my dad , my hero.